NEW JOB!!

I got a new job, if some of you didn’t know already. I start work on Monday-Thursday, while they train me for three weeks. I’m going to be a sleep technician. That means I get to watch people sleep all night. My shift is from 8pm-6am. I will only work 4 days a week, so that I can get my schooling in during the day. I’m so excited! I will finally get to go to college and I will have a kick ass job, one that isn’t a beat down. There is one bad thing about it though, once I get done training I will have to work Fridays and Saturdays, until I get better at it. This is a great incentive to work my ass off so I can have my Fridays and Saturdays back. Maybe it won’t take me too long to succeed. I GET TO WEAR SCRUBS AND TENNIS SHOES!!!!! I’m VERY excited about that. Well if you don’t see me on here in a while it’s because I no longer have an internet worthy computer. I’ll miss all of you, but I will get an internet computer soon.

Horrible Daughter

Ok so I must be the worst daughter in the world…I asked my mom what she wanted for Mother’s day, she said nothing, so I decided I wasn’t going to get her anything. Well this morning she asks me if I wanted to go with her and Sam out of town and just hang out…..I said no. I want to hang out with Danica, I haven’t seen her for two weeks, I freakin’ live with my mom, I see her everyday. This weekend is a pity party weekend, where she didn’t want to just hang out by herself, didn’t want to be reminded of anything bad in her life, LIKE EVERY FREAKING WEEKEND. I love my mom to death, I would do anything for her, but…………….DAMN IT….can’t I just go to lunch with her or something. I don’t want to spend the whole weekend with her. The weekends are the only time I have to myself. Other times I’m working at a job I hate (which I got a new job so I will get to do something else) And not have any sort of a life! I’m TIRED OF IT!!! I want to do something for me! Not for anyone else. I want to do something I want to do. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like I don’t always do what I want on the weekends, but it is still my time. Crap I sound like a selfish bitch, but to be honest no one knows what I go through. *sigh* I’m the adult in our family I take all the crap, I try and keep everyone happy, my mom the main one of the group, so why do I have to make her feel so special, especially this weekend, when I do every damn day! I want to hang out with her on Sunday, just not all weekend….

Good news

Good news: I don’t have CANCER!!!!!!! I’m very happy about that, but my doctor still wants to keep an eye on me for a few months, because he thinks I might have a disease…..that doesn’t have a definite cause, mostly they think it is hereditary. We will see. Anyway just thought I would spread the good news.  

More Bad news

I had a doctor appointment yesterday, can’t say he had any good news for me….turns out I have some weird dieses that is life long, that can’t be cured, but they can do surgery or give me medication to make it less….painful….I also find out next Monday if I might have cancer, or have to have surgery, no questions asked. Yay! This is going to be great, I didn’t know I could be in a bigger depression than I was, but it seems the impossible has occurred. I will keep everyone updated.

Sorrowful times

nadvertently affected by the tragic shootings at Virginia Tech. May we all learn and grow from this deep and sorrowful loss. My prayers are with you.